Changes

Need to be made in my life. I'm dwelling on things that do not care about me anymore.
I'm going to continue to work out and build myself up.
Strength my work ethic.
Continue hating more then anyone should.

Fuck

I try to distance myself from you. I do, I try so hard to distance myself from you but no matter how far away I am I still get over you.

I can't escape this feeling.
and it sucks

I wish

Someone understood me. The way I think, I feel. I have so much on my mind so much to say everything. Spending a night at a bar with friends is enjoyable but I don't think the same way they do. I don't strive for attention or to attract an intoxicated female to make bad decisions with me. I am amused by things like this but that's once I have gone beyond my levels of disgust per say. I am a well respected person among friends. I won't be modest about that, I just wish people that try to work their way into this certain group of friends didn't try so hard to impress. I have no respect for someone who goes out of their way to start a fight to impress others and prove something. I do not give credits or approval to a person like that.

It's nice to know that friends don't break ties with me over another girl. It's good to know at least.

I am a romantic person. I strive for passion and love. I want to go on dates at a zoo, a picnic on the river, a fancy restaurant. I wish for a lot of things, I wish you would look back.

I do not exist

I want too

Smash everything.

Attempt

Trying to stay optimistic
Let's try this out.

Everyday

I text you over and over trying to reach you.
Trying to talk to you.

I am losing my mind over this.
I don't deserve this.